March 7th, 2008
It happened so quickly, it’s hard to remember exactly how we came to our conviction of leaving the planning of our family size to God. We came to Christ in the fall of 2006, and the Holy Ghost took us and started changing us immediately, praise God! Sinful behaviour dropped away before we even realized that they were sins in our new walk with Christ. We were learning so much about God and His ways, we rolled over and showed Jesus our belly, as I like to say. Even though we did not initially understand why God asked us to do things a certain way, it was enough for us to know that He asked, we would try to obey. We know that His ways are not our ways, and who are we to argue with the creator of the universe? Of course we are still learning.
Early in our Christian walk we also learned that walking in obedience to the word of God brings blessings. People often say that life does not come with an instruction manual, but it does, and it is called the Bible! And when we step out in obedience and apply the word of God to our lives, great things happen. When we trust in Gods promises for us and our lives he fulfills them. And this was the backdrop for what became our quiverfull conviction.
I cannot remember when I first heard of being quiverfull as a believer – it wasn’t long ago, but still I can’t bring it to mind. I know that I had heard of ‘crazy Christian families with a million children’ before, and my husband had even shared stories of these families with me before we were saved. Often when we would hear of people with large families we would say, in our ignorance “They must be…religious…”. But, being who I am, I mostly likely stumbled upon a QF mamma on a discussion board somewhere, or on an email list or forum. I mentioned this new thought to Larry, and he looked into the scriptures, I looked into the scriptures as well, and visited the quiverfull.com website to do some more reading. And one day we both just agreed – well, no more contraception for us! And that was it! We burned our condoms!
Before we became believers we planned on having 2 – 3 children, at the most. We even subscribed to the deep ecology concepts of zero population growth, and felt that the world was just a terrible place to bring children into. When we were first married we used a natural family planning method until we felt it was the right time to conceive our first child. After she was born we used condoms until we were ready to conceive our second. After our second we continued using condoms until the Holy Ghost convicted us of Gods desire to bless us with more children that He could use if we raised them for Him. How Christ can change us! Larry, ever a planner, now rests securely in the fact that God has promised to provide for whatever children He blesses us with. He is only responsible to do his best to provide for us, and God will do the rest. Larry feels that such a weight and burden of responsibility was lifted from his shoulders when he surrendered our family planning to God. He claims that he would not use a contraceptive device even at gunpoint now, he is so determined that it is Gods will to raise up a Godly seed in Christian homes that He can use to stand in the gates. For myself, God has changed me in such away that I am just delighted at the thought of more children, and was so eagerly expecting another blessing that I thought we would conceive as soon as we burned the condoms! This wasn’t the case – but I think it was a matter of 6 months or so before I conceived the child that is now growing in my womb!
Psalm 127 is the first Psalm that anyone in our family memorized in song, and DH, eldest DD and I all know it by heart.
Except the LORD build the house, they labour in vain that build it: except the LORD keep the city, the watchman waketh [but] in vain.
[It is] vain for you to rise up early, to sit up late, to eat the bread of sorrows: [for] so he giveth his beloved sleep.
Lo, children [are] an heritage of the LORD: [and] the fruit of the womb [is his] reward.
As arrows [are] in the hand of a mighty man; so [are] children of the youth.
Happy [is] the man that hath his quiver full of them: they shall not be ashamed, but they shall speak with the enemies in the gate.
God has commanded us to be fruitful and multiply – let’s get to it!